I know I have been a bad blogger, I guess it is a really good thing I am not doing NaBloPoMo this year.
There is a lot going on right now. Too much for me too really stay on top of it feels like. Hubby and I are sort of going through a rough patch, as much as I hate to admit it. I don't (or won't) want to go into detail, despite this being my secret little corner of the blogosphere that only the odd person I know in real life has stumbelled across.
Things are just so complicated all of a sudden. While I knew things weren't perfect (really what couple is). Still though everything has sort of caught me off guard. One day will be just ok, the next pretty good and I am full of hope, and then things take a nose dive and I feel so alone.
Your thoughts and prayers are definietly needed.
Monday, November 16, 2009
Thursday, November 5, 2009
Happy Birthday Lilly!
Today my little, baby girl is 5!!! F-I-V-E! Where have the days, and the years gone already. She has been waiting for this day for months, excitingly counting down, past all of the other fall birthdays our family has. "Am I 5 today Mommy?!?" she asked this morning as I woke her while singing Happy Birthday. I smiled and replied 'yes' and she started to dance, and jump around on the bed.
If I close me eyes it honestly feels like yesterday that she was just born.
Happy Birthday my little Lilly-Beth. I hope all of your precious dreams come true!
Confused
I am so incredibly torn right now, my head is spinning and I am on information overload! It is this whole H1N1 'pandemic' that has me all up in arms. I don't know if I should vaccinate my kids or not vaccinate my kids!
I seriously need the universe to send me a giant sign, as I am making myself crazy over the whole thing.
I know this flu is different, and it isn't the same as the seasonal flu. But, at the same time it isn't nearly as lethal as they assumed it was going to be. I know so many people close to me who have already had it too; including my sister-in-law and her kids and husband, my brother (who I was the most worried about getting it, as he is one of the 'healthy, but with serious underlying lung complications' types), friends of Lilly, friends of or friends. The list just seems to keep growing faster than I can keep track of it! Everyone has been really sick for about a week, but then they are just fine.
Normally we are 100% pro-vaccines, with the exception of the seasonal flu shot. In this case I would love my kids to have some immunity against it, without having to suffer. But my gut reaction is to be scared of this vaccine! How horrible is that? It isn't so much H1N1 antigen, or even the thermasil I am concerned about, but rather the Adjuvant, the Squalene, I am slightly freaking about. Possible long term, talking years done the road, side effects from it, is all I can really think about. Of course there is little research done on the side effects of the squalene that I can find, and as I stated it is long term effects that I am most bothered by.
Of course the squalene is only in the Canadian vaccine, not the ones in the US as it isn't approved there by the FDA yet. Should that be another warning bell? I don't konw.
The decision to vaccinate the kids was out of my hands the last few days, as the clinics here were closed due to a vaccine shortage. They reopen today, not to the masses, but to the high risk. To children 6 months to under 5 years. My kids fall in that group. This morning I made the decision to go and stand in line and get the vaccine, then I read some more and I don't know again.
Real risk we are currently faced with versus the unknown, long-term effects.
What do I do? What are you doing?
I seriously need the universe to send me a giant sign, as I am making myself crazy over the whole thing.
I know this flu is different, and it isn't the same as the seasonal flu. But, at the same time it isn't nearly as lethal as they assumed it was going to be. I know so many people close to me who have already had it too; including my sister-in-law and her kids and husband, my brother (who I was the most worried about getting it, as he is one of the 'healthy, but with serious underlying lung complications' types), friends of Lilly, friends of or friends. The list just seems to keep growing faster than I can keep track of it! Everyone has been really sick for about a week, but then they are just fine.
Normally we are 100% pro-vaccines, with the exception of the seasonal flu shot. In this case I would love my kids to have some immunity against it, without having to suffer. But my gut reaction is to be scared of this vaccine! How horrible is that? It isn't so much H1N1 antigen, or even the thermasil I am concerned about, but rather the Adjuvant, the Squalene, I am slightly freaking about. Possible long term, talking years done the road, side effects from it, is all I can really think about. Of course there is little research done on the side effects of the squalene that I can find, and as I stated it is long term effects that I am most bothered by.
Of course the squalene is only in the Canadian vaccine, not the ones in the US as it isn't approved there by the FDA yet. Should that be another warning bell? I don't konw.
The decision to vaccinate the kids was out of my hands the last few days, as the clinics here were closed due to a vaccine shortage. They reopen today, not to the masses, but to the high risk. To children 6 months to under 5 years. My kids fall in that group. This morning I made the decision to go and stand in line and get the vaccine, then I read some more and I don't know again.
Real risk we are currently faced with versus the unknown, long-term effects.
What do I do? What are you doing?
Monday, November 2, 2009
Halloween Recap
Lilly hit the mother load with the candy this year, while we hardly had any trick-or-treaters . In summation, there is a A LOT of candy in our house at the moment. :)
Saturday, October 31, 2009
Happy Halloween!
There is quite the excited buzz in our house today as we wait in anticipation to head out the door for some trick or treating! Every hour Lilly asks if it is time yet, and every hour I inform her we are just a little closer, but not there yet.
She is dressing up as Belle this year. She didn't really seam to mind that I told her that is what she was going to be, with out an options. Which is good, simply because that was the over-priced costume we brought in Disneyland last year. It finally fits, and really is quite beautiful, so why not. Plus then I don't have to get all stressed out about a costume for her. Now for Lyndon, I haven't quite figured out what he is dressing up as, but I have a few hours still ;)
Lilly has already had quite the Halloween filled week though leading up to today, which probably explains some of the excitement. At dance class, on Tuesday, they had the opportunity to wear their costumes, on Wednesday there was the kindergarten class party (no costumes involved), Thursday was the field trip to the pumpkin patch, and Friday was dress up day at school. I don't ever quite remember quite as much going on at school when I was a child. It was strictly a one-day holiday, but I guess times have changed. Makes me feel slightly old.
At home our only preparations was the carving of Jack! Lilly and Daddy had quite a lot of fun working on him together, and he turned out rather well once again. It will be fun to set him outside tonight, to welcome all the little witches andghosts to out door ;)
Hope everyone has a safe and spooktacular Halloween!
She is dressing up as Belle this year. She didn't really seam to mind that I told her that is what she was going to be, with out an options. Which is good, simply because that was the over-priced costume we brought in Disneyland last year. It finally fits, and really is quite beautiful, so why not. Plus then I don't have to get all stressed out about a costume for her. Now for Lyndon, I haven't quite figured out what he is dressing up as, but I have a few hours still ;)
Lilly has already had quite the Halloween filled week though leading up to today, which probably explains some of the excitement. At dance class, on Tuesday, they had the opportunity to wear their costumes, on Wednesday there was the kindergarten class party (no costumes involved), Thursday was the field trip to the pumpkin patch, and Friday was dress up day at school. I don't ever quite remember quite as much going on at school when I was a child. It was strictly a one-day holiday, but I guess times have changed. Makes me feel slightly old.
At home our only preparations was the carving of Jack! Lilly and Daddy had quite a lot of fun working on him together, and he turned out rather well once again. It will be fun to set him outside tonight, to welcome all the little witches andghosts to out door ;)
Hope everyone has a safe and spooktacular Halloween!
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
Happy Birthday to ME!!!
I'm 28 today! I can't believe it. Over the year my family has expanded, I have started a business, and hopefully I have gotten a little wiser. Nothing too exciting planned for the day, just sometime with the kiddies and Hubby tonight. Really that is all that I really want, well that and maybe some cake too ;)
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
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